I had a panic attack this morning at 12:30. So I've been awake since then. I have some much stuff going on, it's very overwhelming. A little over a month, the local red cross was there, a one man operation. I came in, and made an immediate impact on the operation of it. I used to be almost always closed as there was nobody to work the office, with my help we are now open 5 days a week with the office staffed from 9 to 4:30. At the hospital, I came in to volunteer, and I approached it as it was "real" Work. I am in huge demand there now, two different departments had to figure out how to work it out, both departments wanted me last week. There is plenty of other people there, but they specifically wanted me. At both the red cross and the hospital, I set the bar high, really high, so expectations are expected to be at that level, or better. I am the go to guy for a lot of things. While it is great to be needed and appreciated for the work I do, it is extremely overwhelming when I still have to focus on my education (main priority)This weekend I took the first half of an instructors training course, so now I have get ready to teach a class, and show that I can teach. Then finish the course. I am feeling a lot of pressure I have no idea who's going to be there, and how and what are they going to be evaluating. SO basically, I am going crazy, the hospital wants me to work more hours, they created a new position based on my skills, I almost wanted to tell them that I would do it if they promised to give me some hours on the ER, which is really where I want to be. I haven't decided whether I can give them more hours and compromise the work I've been doing at the red cross. The Red cross office is running really smooth now, I am on top of things and looking for ways to improve the operation of it, the chapter manager, is almost never there, so it's a lot of times up to me to keep things going. At least all this work it's going to look good in my resume. I just need to stay sane.
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